The Internal Saboteur
Cover art by Aida Muluneh
I stand staring at your lips in your small room,
thirsty for the wetness of your mouth.
You’ve said No about four times,
even when I asked for your forehead.
We’ve been doing this for some time whenever I’m in Cape Town-going out for drinks, enjoying each other’s company,
me wanting more, you drawing lines not to be crossed.
You ask me why I keep staring at you. I have no words.
I feel filthy. Unwanted.
In the car, I want to snatch my heart out
and only put it back when it has stopped aching.
But I will see you again.